This Unruly Body

This unruly body

shows the scars of invisibility

stores retaliations too dangerous to speak

attempts to numb instead of feel

to translate dismissal into love

when feeling was too dangerous

and I was in the way


This unruly body

elicits strong feelings

a thing to be contended with

the disgust with the pity mask

the discomfort with the worry mask

the problem and the problem

too much seen-ness

to be less is to be better

doctor’s orders


This unruly body

strength and resilience

shield, sword and hearth

my home and my shelter

a reminder of what I survive

contains all of this


This unruly body

warm and engulfing

strong, sturdy, solid, sexy

source of comfort and pleasure

a smile, a squeeze, a moan

loved and seen

and seen and seen and seen


(Inspired by Roxanne Gay’s project Unruly Bodies)

A story to warm your cockles

I met a crying gothgirl in the tube.

Maybe I’m just in a sentimental mood, but this story really got to me. is also the author of one of my favorite bits of bitterness, mostly because I’ve had more than a few interactions with people like this:

“Oh my god you’ll never guess what happened
Come quick it’s a matter of life and death
Oh no oh no the world is ending
The excitement never ends

I’m glitzy, ditzy, I’m the drama queen
Spend life bouncing from crisis to crisis
I make up for my life’s dullness
Playing up everyone else’s”

For more, read the full “Drama Queen”