On Taking Back My Power, Which Was Freely Given.

One of the great­est (and least dis­cussed) bar­ri­ers to com­pas­sion prac­tice is the fear of set­ting bound­aries and hold­ing peo­ple account­able. I know it sounds strange, but I believe that under­stand­ing the con­nec­tion between bound­aries, account­abil­ity, accep­tance, and com­pas­sion has made me a kinder person…

Dur­ing the inter­views [I did as part of my research], it blew my mind when I real­ized that many of the truly com­mit­ted com­pas­sion prac­ti­tion­ers were also the most boundary-conscious peo­ple in the study. Com­pas­sion­ate peo­ple are bound­aried peo­ple. I was stunned.

-Brene Brown, The Gift of Imperfection

In my last post, I wrote about being compassionately selfish, and how it is a totally necessary component of having full and nourishing life.

I spent some time thinking about what I’d written, and realized that what I was actually talking about in some ways was taking my power back.

Power is another loaded word. we “fight the power”.

We “speak truth to power”.

“Power corrupts”.

People in power are the enemy because they hold the rest of us back. There’s a definite ‘power’ stigma happening.

Noticing how much of my power I give away in everyday life is quite astonishing.

I want to be compassionate, I want to help people who ask me for help, or to talk, or are even just around.  I genuinely enjoy having the “well, why do you think you do that” types of conversations that many of my friends have come to rely on me for (leading, somewhat unfortunately, to have a few remark “why should I go to a therapist when I can just talk  to you!”)

Even my path forward has been hindered by ‘what if it’s not the right choice’, I give my power away to uncertainty.

No, let’s try that sentence again.

I have hindered my path forward by allowing ‘what if it’s not the right choice’ to rule. I give my power away to uncertainty.

It’s no wonder that sometimes I feel really stuck and like I have to wait for some external force to pull me forward!

It’s time to take the time to shore it up and put some appropriate boundary walls around.

Set better boundaries.

Kinder boundaries.

Boundaries that allow and encourage me to be more of my full self.

Here’s where fear and resistance shows up. The fear says “People rely on you to be available to them. This is what friendship is. If you say ‘no’, then you will be alone and you’ll just sit in your house and talk to yourself all day.”  The fear says “This is just shutting people out”. The fear says “You’ll never be able to stick to it, you need someone else to make you do stuff”.  The fear says “You’re being ridiculous, just stay as you are.”  The fear says “You’re talking about control, and everyone knows that nobody actually has any control over their lives.”

“The truth may be puzzling. It may take some work to grapple with. It may be counterintuitive. It may contradict deeply held prejudices. It may not be consonant with what we desperately want to be true. But our preferences do not determine what’s true.
Carl Sagan

What if “intuition” and “common sense” are other words for fear? What if the less automatic choice is the more loving one?

And what’s wrong with being selfish? We answered that already. It’s essential.

One day at a time.

  • Also essential reading on this topic: Megan Elizabeth Morris’ “Nothing Motivation

[Photo credit: Boundaries by Wonderferret]